red light.

i feel like i need to reconnect with so many people, things, school, music, poetry, me. but right now i feel like everything is just happening too fast. like september just started yesterday, and its still warm like the summer. but its fall, and its gonna be october soon. we're already about to be a month into school, so why am i still getting "settled in," i didn't believe people back then, but life moves fast ya'll. life is too short for certain things. you just have to let go of some things and live a little. sometimes i feel like i dont live my life enough because im not much of a party goer. because on a friday night i would rather stay home and watch a movie than go to a party or club. or i would rather just chill with the crowd than get wasted. maybe im weird? i feel like an old soul at times because of the music that i listen to, and im not into much of the "misogynistic,'' or "money gettin" music out there. i would rather listen to things i actually believe in, i forgot who said it, but i agree with them when they said that just because a song makes me shake my ass, doesn't mean its a good song. i mean dont get me wrong i enjoy to dance and party. but just not all the time. and i feel like maybe ill look back when im 30 or something and wish i had partied more now. but im fine with how my life is now. i just wish there was more of a balance, and more time to stop and live.