if someone were to ask me "do you miss high school? would you go back?" my answer would be no. i wouldnt go back because i feel that everything happens for a reason and everything that happened helped me to grow and be the person i am to today, i know that i will continue to grow with the following years college has to offer. high school was not the best years of my life, i'm sure the best years of my life are soon to come...but just because i dont miss the acutal HIGH SCHOOL. there is one main thing i miss about it. my friends. i miss walking around the hallways and seeing people i've known since like kindergarten, meeting new people, actually KNOWING at least 1/2 the people i walk by. this college life is alot of "NEW" to grasp. new everything. new setting,people,way of doing things,professors,partying,being away from family..and i`m only a bridge away so people must think.. its not that bad, and im lucky because im so close but i miss them still so much. like... i feel like im missing so much not being there within a week and just being HOME and feeling HOME around me. but being away from home is contributing to my growth as a person, because im not going to live at home for the rest of my life. i do miss them very much tho.... being in college is like... you lose connection with your friends... not the FULL connection, but KNOWING that you're gonna see them in school the next day, and if they arent there all u need to do is IM or TXT them to answer the question of "WHY Werent u in school today fool!?" lol.. now its like, huge periods of being away from one another. all we got now is facebook,AIM,myspace,txting,phonecalls, but one can only do that for so long until its not enough. until you start to feel like.. you really miss being around them and enjoying your friends company.. having lunch together... awww how i miss lunch. me and my crew used to DIE of LAUGHTER.lmao. omg. we would LAUGH SO HARD that the WHOLE CAF would turn to look at us like "look these spanish mutha fuckas"lol but we didnt care. it just made us laugh harder... i miss knowing how my friends were feeling from their expressions on their face, and like really knowing. i mean KNOWING how they are, not jus by like "im okay" when you know they are not. i miss the H.E.A.L girl mentoring meetings, even tho it was like falling apart towards the end i really feel like girls were really connecting and it was a place where people felt like they could really let loose and let it alllll out. i miss seeing mrs.denham, gosh i miss that woman! she's the bomb. shes always been like a tia to me. i miss me and cat always chillin after school. it sucks being away from her the way i am. like i love my cuz to death and i really hate being away from her, i feel like.. i need to guide her in the right path, if not she'll lose her way....so college fo
r me, you win some, you lose some...you gain the freedom, knowledge at your fingertips,meeting new people,new atmosphere, new look on life... you lose some though because.. well, you miss out on your friends life and whats going on with them, its all so much all at once, and as much as you want to talk to your friends or people you dont go to school with,the college life jus keeps going on,and soon enough keeping in touch gets harder and harder, one large "catch up" convo happens once a month, or 3 weeks, or sometimes none at all.. the catch up all comes down when we all touch home.... HOMEBASE is when we'll all be good, all together again, cliche but, home is where the heart is. straight up and down, left and right. home makes people, and im not just talking bout a household, but i mean the community,town,city, wherever you grow up and contributed to who you are today.
saskia,you'll be okayyyyyy!
all you need is home,
love you & miss you boo!!!
wed.21.. few days away!
